I hope you have all had a good couple weeks! The time literally feels like it has flown by since I wrote my last blog post!
BUT HOW IS IT NEARLY APRIL!
ALSO HOW ON EARTH IS MY LITTLE MAN TURNING 4 TOMORROW!!!!
Yes.... It's Jackson's 4th birthday tomorrow and I really can't believe it. I know that's what happens ... Children get older and people with kids think parents are crazy when they go on and on about how fast time goes when you have kids but it really feels like the last 4 years has gone by at the speed of light! This time 4 years ago little did I know..... In around 8 hours time I would be going into labour!! (11 days early JACKSON MILLER!) :P
He was amazing to me and he arrived in 4 hours and 13 minutes which was great. 6am - 10:13am and it was all done! What a good little lad. He's great to his Mummy :)
I've felt a little down this week... Its really silly as Jackson is absolutely fine and happy but I feel sad as Jackson doesn't know its his Birthday. He isn't aware at all about it. He actually has no idea which makes me sad. I know I'm being silly as he's such a happy little boy and he still loves opening the presents (Well gets me to open them for him) Which is so lovely as he sits on my lap and gives me more affection as his face lights up with all 'The Twirlywoo's' Merchandise! (CRAZY FOR 'THE TWIRLYWOOS')
I just don't want him to miss out or feel anything any different or any less loved than any other child. I know I sound crazy... I just want to make sure that Jackson feels loved and make sure he's happy. He is my number one priority and I would go to the ends of the earth for him.
Why does everything feel so much more intense and out of control at night? Last night at 1am I was woken by Jackson being sick and I just go into panic mode!!!!!! Spring out of bed to make sure he's ok. Its so odd... During the day I could cope better but at night it just makes you feel like some sleepy zombie mummy and you rush around like a lunatic! ( This might just be me :P)
Trying to bath Jackson, Wash Clothes/Duvet/Pillows/Sheets and scrub carpets and mattress toppers whilst trying to calm Jackson down is just mayhem!!! Thank god for The Twirlywoo's they really are a life saver :D
How we have both managed to stay up all day I don't know!
We had a little Birthday today for Jackson at my Parents with my family as Jackson has Nursery tomorrow and then he is off to his Dad's with his side of the family for the late afternoon and evening.
So Jackson gets 2 birthdays, 2 lots of presents and 2 lots of Cake!! Which cant be bad! I think he had a great day even if he didn't know what it was or what It was for. He makes me so proud :D
Last week I took Jackson to Soft Play. It was great just me and my little man. I thought we would get there for 10am.... Nice and early.... Beat the mayhem......
NOT A CHANCE! What day did I pick.... £2 entry day!!!!!
It was packed already and it got busier and busier.
I don't mind it too much but I just thought it would be nice to go there when it was quiet so we could run around together without screaming children everywhere!! Jackson prefers a bit of calm sometimes as it can get a little overwhelming for him. (At Nursery when he needs to get away from the madness he takes himself to the 'Baby Room' and chills out in there with the youngsters! Nice and peaceful with the babies)
So yeah my planned failed as it was crazy. Kids screaming, Running around, Bumping into each other.... Its like they get given a load of Smarties at the door as they are coming in :P
Jackson found some big blocks and started to make the letter C and G so he had his quiet time which was great. I was terrified of any child stealing blocks out of his letters!!!! Meltdown would occur... I just gave any child 'The Look' if they put there hands on the letters!! I just kept thinking its for your own good child.... You may be wearing this letter if you take a block from it!!!
They left him to it... Thank god!
I always look like the crazy Mum at Soft Play... Mum's are sat down drinking tea together and having a good chat... There's me trying to fit my massive butt through the tunnels and other kids queueing behind me trying to push past as I'm going so slow!! Me trying to squeeze through tiny gaps and getting out of breath chasing Jackson around constantly for an hour ... Up and Down the slides! ( I must stop eating so much!!!) SO UNFIT!!! I'm sure I did well on my Fitbit that day! Makes it look like I'm more active than I really am! BONUS :P
Jackson loves feeding Dexter Gravy Bones at the moment... He goes into the kitchen and stares at Dexter's cupboard and shouts ' DD's Bones' ( DD is Dexter.... Dexter Davies) He's taken Ryan's last name which isn't fair.. He should definitely be a Love!
But I lost that battle... :(
Jackson used to constantly stand by the food cupboard and ask for Mini Rolls or chocolate buttons... Now he asks for Dexter's bones!
He loves saying 'DD SIT, DD PAW, DD BONE!!!' Makes him laugh so much its so cute! Dexter isn't complaining he gets like 10 gravy bones a day!! Maybe have to get him low fat ones if this carries on :P Tubby DD... Like his Mumma :P
This weekend is my Balloon-A-Thon for The National Autistic Society so IM REALLY hoping for good weather! PLEASE stay dry and not rain!!!! Its way to much to ask of this country!
Fingers crossed it all goes well... I'm kinda nervous......
Wish me luck!!
Thank you for reading.
Kelly and Jackson
XxxxxX
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